A year on

So it's been a year since I last looked at my course. I was bullied in my last job, had counselling for that and the resultant depression and spent many hours hating my photography and everything else I hold dear. There have been many times in the last year that I resolved to give up on the course. "Who was I kidding?" "Me? A photographer?" "Really?"

Moments of extreme  self-doubt and loathing.

I changed jobs and slowly the anger abated and I started to see light at the end of the tunnel. I started running and started enjoying life again. And still the course loomed on the horizon... a massive cloud waiting to prove once and for all that I am no photographer. A mediocre snapper at best. It's a terrible having to admit that. I love taking pictures, but the end result is never really memorable and certainly not anything I would rate as anything more than a pretty picture.

So what now? do I carry on with this course? Do I cut my losses and abandon it after 2 assignments?
I've decided that I will carry on. If only to see it through and learn what I had always thought should be innate and instinctual to a photographer.

I'm back!